Date:	2005-08-12 01:25
Subject:	dot com.
Security:	Public
Mood:	upset...
Music:	aaronalexander.

well, everythings going great.
im trying to book some places around town before i leave for nashville
and knoxville, also got a place in atlanta in the works. the demo will
be ready saturday, cant wait for you guys to hear that, im really
proud with how it turned out. the website is up, http://www.aaronalexanderonline.com/
and ive still got my job at target, woo woo for me.

so tonight im going to play video games and be bored... now that schools back
in all my friends are asleep...

night,
aaron.

Omg, the freaking trip was amazing. I absolutely loved every second of it.I got to play a show at a place called the new city cafe in knoxville. I will have pictures of it on my website when it is up. I went to visit the worlds tallest treehouse, 9 stories? Amazing. I also went white water rafting... But that's something else to discuss completely. I'll be driving this drive again in two months to start my mini tour. I'm all worked up now. Its good to be near home again however. Love most of my readers.wooo

Wow, my friend got a freakin' blackberry cell phone. And so yea I can update my livejournal from the smoky's. I'm still on the way, and it's fairly boring but we've been listening to music n such. Meagan's all curled up in a blanket and she's so cute. Right now it is raining and its obvious the camping trip will be loads of fun. Wow, just wow.

(Aaron)

Date:	2005-07-30 19:35
Subject:	...gone
Security:	Public
Mood:	STOKED!
Music:	GROWING PAINZ

im heading out to the smoky mountaiiinnnnnsss tomorrow morning fer a campin'
trip. its gonna rawk, i hope i get mauled by a bear.

talked to the record guy again today, found out hes the guy that recorded
for the local rap groooup the 3 6 mafia. i shot some pool with him for
about 30 minutes and checked out the studio, which is a fucking amazing
studio, if i can sneak a digi in there ill snap a few pictures to show off.
but yea, because im not 18 my parents have to fucking be signed into the
contract which fucking blows, but when i turn 18 im gonna get something
straightened out to where they arent involved hopefully.

but yea, we started booking that mini tour in 2 months, ill post some shows
when i get back, prolly start playing some in about a month or so.

thanks for caring enough to read, see everyone in 8 days.

Date:	2005-07-26 10:10
Subject:	finally
Security:	Public
Mood:	good.

well guys, i finally did it, and it was totally on accident.
i made a new demo recently (like 4 days ago). and it had all
new stuff on it, ive never shown any of it to anyone. it
blows anything else ive ever done out of the water. somehow
my parents got a hold of the demo and started sending it to poeple,
it got back to three different record companies, two of which wanted
to record me. i signed with this record label owned by a brian pittman,
they are signing me to a demo contract. that means that they record a
three track demo and based on the sale of that to whomever they will
decide whether or not to make an album or not. after the demo is recorded
ill be starting a mini tour in about a month, ill be going to nashville, ky,
and alabama.
they are deciding between two of the songs to send to locals only (93x).
its acoustic music and it doesnt sound poppy to me, so i really dont
know how thatll go over, but whatever, its what ive been wanting to do
for forever.

when the demo is finished ill be selling it for five bucks a cd and there
will be a few other places you can buy it from, ill post more about it later.
thanks for your guys support in what ive done so far,
aaron.

fuck.

Date:	2005-07-17 09:33
Subject:	confusing!!!!!!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	confused

my life lately is so confusing, i dont really know which way i want
to go anymore. and i really don't know where i am right now.

theres not too much i really want to say about it, im just confused.

why cant life decisions be simple? why cant life be easy?...

i just want to be happy, and i want everyone around me to be.




how... dramatic,
aaron.

Date:	2005-07-13 11:50
Subject:	another dream?
Security:	Public
Mood:	confused

okay these dreams are just getting weiiiiird.

so, im at a dock with meagan right? romantic scene, sunset.. romantic.
all of a sudden we are trying to get to this ballgame (baseball). so we
hitch a ride from an old friend LEON. but some how i wind up trying to
rescue meagan, but im a girl now. anyway, so this guy has kidnapped her.
i wind up having to fight him bare hands, and he's really fucking good
at fighting. and at the end of the fight hes trying to talk, doing one of
those "im about to kill you any last words?" speeches. i pull out a pocket
knife and say: "what would this do?" as i push it deep into his chest and
slide the knife across. he says "i'd probably die" as he collapses to the
floor.

right before i wake up i realize ive killed two of my old friends.
i cant really say the names, but they were extremely fucking close to me and
you would know who they were.

i know absolutely nothing about interpreting dreams, but i'd have to say this
one would be totally fucked up... i actually woke up crying.

Date:	2005-07-12 22:08
Subject:	dirty hand?
Security:	Public
Mood:	annoyed

i tried to buy a digital camera today guys.

i get out to my car to test it out, and it it says
"hello" in scrolling marquee across the screen.
...then... suddenly!!! without warning, it says

"OFF!!!"

of course i thought it just glitched out, so i turned it
back on.
"hello" --------->>>>>

"OFF!!!"

it was clearly malfunctioning.
i took it back inside hoping to exchange it for a new,
but nooooooo... they were sold out of the camera i wanted.
so i got my money back.


fuck.

well soooo, lets see... this live journal thing got on my nerves before
but i guess i dont mind it, yet again.. i mean hell look how far back my
posts go.

everything is getting so much better here recently

loves:
meaganhendricks
josh.
jakecasey
danny.

likes:
tiffanynorman
alexscadroli
jeremy.(bigjerm)

weeeeeeeeeeeeeee......... ha hah

BFFXCORE.

Date:	2005-07-08 10:06
Subject:	i love you
Security:	Public
Mood:	awkward...
Music:	the meatmen - "blowjobs ain't cheatin'"

last night i had the weirdest fucking dream.

i was in the movie terminator somehow and i was
that guy that got sent to the past to fuck
dudes mom... the confusing and awkward part of
the whole thing was. that was my mission
breifing and everything. heres a picture, i need
you to fuck my mom.

i woke up right about the time titties started
flapping... weird shit.


word.

Date:	2005-06-29 01:29
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	HAPPY AS FUCK
Music:	BANE - "In Pieces"

No matter how much I say that I've learned life's lessons, the only way to
ever really know life's lessons is when it smacks you right in the face
(life smacks you in the face) Rubberband stretched to the limit, but still
I cannot help but pull it just a little bit more. Once again my whole world
crumbles, walls cave in, i fall backwards. Everything I know taken out at
the knee.

Hands stuffed deep into my mouth to keep from choking on the
words that show how much i know about knowing nothing!!!

...at all(I dont know anything at all) I know that these days will
have an end just like i know that I'll be back again. This place is
awful, but its familiar.



FUCK YEA!!!

wow, welll... so a lot has been happening lately, im not really
going into much detail but to those of you who know, well you
know, and thats all there is to know so there.

i work a lot now, it seems its been either work or meagan lately..
pretty boring sounding? yep, oh well, i love it...

i work 40/hr weeks now, and ive been doing a lotta backroom stuff,
ive been pulled from carts FINALLY!!! ive been reckognized...
i was invited to go on a week vacation for target corp so help organize
a new store, but our store bailed out on it, so i didnt get to go unfortunately...

me and meagan pulled through the hardest part of our relationship better
than ever, and truly have proven that we can make it through high school
i fucking love that bitch shes amazing... and so am i.. so there.

~ aaron.

Date:	2005-05-05 01:50
Subject:	today...
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired
Music:	HOODS - "Lies"

wow, today was interesting....
im really getting back into my reading, of the bible n' such.
today was alex's birthday and i didn't use any drugs at all, which
is an amazing accomplishment for me here lately. but it's something
different really. im trying to let god use my life more, i want
to do something with my life more meaningful than simply going
out and having fun. i'm not saying it's not about me, everything
is about me. thats human nature to please yourself, but i don't
feel like it should just be about myself anymore, i want to
do things for other people.

i met with parker today and started reading through romans again,
he's really going to help me get through this shit im working with
and he also introduced me to a book "don't waste your life" by John
Piper. so far it's pretty intense. basically the message of the book
is, that we've been given so much, and really helps you question what
you are going to do with it. i don't know, i just want to figure
things out... everyone does.

im tired, been up since 7:30, and now it's 2 am. almost 24 hours in 5.

good NIGHT.

~ aaron.

Date:	2005-05-02 00:53
Subject:	im back
Security:	Public
Mood:	chipper
Music:	100 Demons - "HARD LUCK"

hey guys, its been a long time... i decided to come back to this
little thing... i probably won't write in it for long considering
i have short phases where i want people around, then i dont.

ive been working my ass off the past 3 weeks at target, 28 hours +
a week, i got a fucking mohawk, which is what ive been wanting for
fucking years, i am stoked about how it came out, i got to see fucking
TERROR on the 28th, and that show rocked my sandals.

i rededicated my life to christ last weekend, and im really going to
try and pull through some shit in my life.

ive been reading, a lot since summer started. i don't even use the
internet as a way of communication, hardly. i look up interesting new
articles and print them out. i've been forum hopping as well.

i'm trying to get back into computers, making it my hobby again. i've
been working with Basic, and C++. shooting to learn CSS.

as far as friends go... well, i'm still really sketchy on who i want
around. I keep running from people, i just can't decide who is right
for me, i always think i deserve better. Meagan is the only person
that is in it for keeps, she isn't going anywhere. people have too
many character flaws when i look at them, they just make me mad.
I want someone that wants me for who i am, whether or not i mess up,
it's amazing the number of relationships you can fuck up with one
mistake, the way i look at it is, if you mess up i can remember all
the good qualities you have. everyone makes mistakes. I am truly
one of the most giving people i know, i mean c'mon, in one night,
i gave 60 bucks to that was then to fix a tail light someone at the
show busted out, gave 10 bucks to ed to get in, gave ed 5 bucks for water
when he got drained, and paid a bill at CK's to save nick from getting
busted from the cops for stealing the shit he ate. (which i regret doing).

i've been happy though, i don't really listen to people anymore, and that
seems to help with the white noise.

Date:	2005-03-22 21:25
Subject:	:)
Security:	Public
Mood:	ecstatic
Music:	ANAL CUNT - I LIT YOUR BABY ON FIRE

FOR THE RECORD: IM IN A FUCKING GREAT MOOD!

Date:	2005-03-21 18:03
Subject:	no one reply to this
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused
Music:	THAT WAS THEN - "Stand by me"

DO NOT REPLY TO THIS POST!!!

Date:	2005-03-21 17:36
Subject:	Wanna disco? Wanna see me disco?
Security:	Public
Mood:	bouncy
Music:	Converge

( application like what?!? )

Date:	2005-03-20 20:05
Subject:	spring break
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm
Music:	Akasha

wow, thats all i have to fucking say...

i spent the whole damned spring break with some of the coolest people.
meagan (of course, because shes so fucking great), nick, sean, ed, tiffany,
shayla, (believe it or not) caleb, alex, josh, BIG GERM!!!! (jeremy), allie,
justin, dan, and many others (tell me if i forgot you).

i think this whole damned break has been the best fucking break of my life.
i got back into the whole live journal, myspace thing. i had a little fun with
my first post on my live journal ("YOU MEAN THAT WASNT TRUE?!") fuck off.

i got the new comeback kid cd, which pwns and i listened to the thing all week.
i also got the akasha cd (thanks to sean) and they are now one of my favorite bands.

saturday night i went to go see that was then, and bury the living. they were amazing,
i took meagan, nick, and caleb. it was nicks first real hardcore show, and it wasnt the
best thing ive ever seen but it was entertaining aside from the SPOM kids that just came
to sit around and talk the whole time. NO FUCKING RESPECT FOR MUSIC!!!

Bury the living was amazing for the second time to see them. Their singer looks like he could
fucking snap your neck with his index finger and thumb. he pointed two SPOM kids out and mocked
them because they were sitting down during one of the most brutal breakdowns of the whole fucking
show.

It was really freaking cool that they brought some speakers in there to talk to kids at the show,
and the message behind what they were saying really made me think about things you dont want to
think about in our country, or normally just dont.

We left after that was then, it was the only band i had originally come for.

There was the draw back of a cold that i have had all week and i think i may have actually made it
worse by not stopping to rest all week. lol, oh well. fuck you

sorry about the absence... i've had a lot of things on my mind.
i really need to get some things off of my chest.

i've been having problems with drugs, sex, and with the people in my life.

i tried heroin about a month ago, and i think i might be becoming dependent.
i can't stop. it's becoming easier for me to get, and more difficult to stop
myself from using it.
i also started using coke, but i was getting into that earlier than heroin.
i dont use it that often, but it still scares me. im scaring myself.

my parents caught me with pot again, and i don't know what they are going to do this
time. they are letting me continue to hang out with nick though because they think
hes safe.

i started cutting myself about a month ago as well. i got really fucking upset after
a fight with my parents and i really couldnt control it, it's becoming habit.

im considering suicide, this lifestyle is fucking killing me.

if you guys dont hear from me again for a while, you know why.
my parents are talking about lakeside, possibly boarding school.

please, dont try and fucking give me sympathy.